carnival cruise.

i haven't come and blogged in ages. it's quite irritating i might add. i've been terribly busy between getting sick and school. i'm behind. i don't enjoy it one bit. i have found that time spent with those i love are always enjoyable. they take the stress off of your shoulders. especially the ones that give you no pressure. i've been with eric for awhile now. it's quite thrilling indeed. i definitely rely a lot upon him. i would terribly enjoy a visit to the park. maybe to even climb pinnacle mountain. i think i'm going to talk erin into climbing the mountain this weekend. the top is always the place to be. the wind blows perfectly through your hair and you feel this huge sigh of relief. like you've achieved the biggest thing in the world. when really you've just climbed a big hill. stupid arkansas. we've no true mountains. only mole hills. i've drank a lot of wine with my mom tonight. probably the cause of my rambling on. oh well, if you're reading this you're interested in what i've to say. which is amusing. i think i'm going to go on a diet. i feel the need to get back into shape. i feel like i'm gaining weight even though i'm not. maybe it's because i'm not active like i used to be. i feel like losing ten pounds. i probably shouldn't set my standards so high. i already weigh 103. maybe i should just lose none and gain muscle back? i'm fond of that idea. as long as my tummy is pretty. i don't like it one bit. the other night my mom saw a picture of eric. covered in tattoos & piercings. i don't think she was too happy. oh well. he's a beautiful soul. beauty is the only thing i truly look at. if he covers body in art i'll love him for it. tattoos are only art expressed on the body. so spectacular. i think i'm going on vacation with erin & brandy this summer. and monica. i'm quite excited. we are all going to florida. but i'm not exactly sure what my mom is going to do about monica's trip she has planned. my mom isn't too fond of her. which is terribly stupid. she thinks she's a bad person even though she isn't. oh well. mom's will be moms. my forhead is itching, company is coming. i could write for days about nothing. dang. i think i should probably go. i have to finish homework. i have to finish 60 problems due friday, plus other homework. so rank. have a good evening.