i am me as you are he and you are me and we are all together.

today was just any ordinary day, me mum and i visited my grandpa. sadly i don't think he is doing to well. it's odd though, we all thought he'd go before my neenaw. i think he's lonely. i should probably visit him more. i make broken promises all of the time, and yet he forgives me. telling him i'll visit more and call more. he says don't worry knowing the truth. i know where this will get me. i don't like the feeling of knowing i could have been much closer to someone and then they pass away.

i'm neither excited nor ready to leave tomorrow. this day has passed slowly, and i've even started counting minutes. i'm dreading the awful drive tomorrow. ugh. i'm definately coming back early. i don't enjoy time away anymore. danny's finally home, it's nice knowing he had a nice trip. hopefully he might be able to come visit for a few. that'd make a swell day i suppose.

i'm thinking of investing in a record player. i love the sound, how it is no so clear, but it's soothing. i don't know though, it mostly depends on the records i find while on my trip. i've been sitting here watching these little birds play, with no worries. don't you miss when you were little and everyone was your friend. nobody was seriously into talking about one another. you could spend time with everyone and nobody was jealous. you all had the same interests, and nobody put you down because you had something different about you. i miss that. then again i don't because you'd never truly know the person you are with. they'd be a mirror image of your actions. i like difference, but i do miss how close we all used to be.

have a pleasent evening.

Curious George.

i've spent the day packing my bags and wondering how this trip is going to end up. going to my dad's for christmas is something i do every year. each time i crave the scent of my own home, and my mom after a few days. i'm going open minded this time. hoping to see my cousin mostly. it's not like an average family gathering. we have the family members that talk strictly about themselves and then the family members that want to know everything about you. we don't have a bond amungst us. just a puppet family you could say.

though this trip is going to be long. not seeing my bestfriend for a while will make it so much more longer. she and i have grown together faster than ever. and you can pretty much say that we've become part of one anothers family. hopefully i'll return in time before school starts so i can spend a little time with her.

i'm very curious as well, in a new relationship over the holidays. i wonder if it'll make things worse, or possibly bring us closer together. who knows i'll cross my fingers and we'll see. i've got nothing to lose.

have a pleasent evening.