today was just any ordinary day, me mum and i visited my grandpa. sadly i don't think he is doing to well. it's odd though, we all thought he'd go before my neenaw. i think he's lonely. i should probably visit him more. i make broken promises all of the time, and yet he forgives me. telling him i'll visit more and call more. he says don't worry knowing the truth. i know where this will get me. i don't like the feeling of knowing i could have been much closer to someone and then they pass away.
i'm neither excited nor ready to leave tomorrow. this day has passed slowly, and i've even started counting minutes. i'm dreading the awful drive tomorrow. ugh. i'm definately coming back early. i don't enjoy time away anymore. danny's finally home, it's nice knowing he had a nice trip. hopefully he might be able to come visit for a few. that'd make a swell day i suppose.
i'm thinking of investing in a record player. i love the sound, how it is no so clear, but it's soothing. i don't know though, it mostly depends on the records i find while on my trip. i've been sitting here watching these little birds play, with no worries. don't you miss when you were little and everyone was your friend. nobody was seriously into talking about one another. you could spend time with everyone and nobody was jealous. you all had the same interests, and nobody put you down because you had something different about you. i miss that. then again i don't because you'd never truly know the person you are with. they'd be a mirror image of your actions. i like difference, but i do miss how close we all used to be.
have a pleasent evening.
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